June, 23 2011

This morning I weighed myself, and I weighed 168. Not that shabby I must say :P
Im really happy to be back into the 60's! 
And I was also surprised to say that I have a follower now! I know, how lame of me to say. 
So today was..interesting.
Instead of doing the 500 sit-ups, I did only 300. I know for a fact that I'm going to be hurting SO badly in the morning. I did the underarm exercises with the Prego-sauce (Which I still find a little funny). I told my mom about it, and she said that we had weights in my brother's old room. I feel ridiculous. I also did the 30 minute (What seems to be) daily treadmill routine. Im going to be feeling like absolute SHIT tomorrow. 
I noticed that I'm starting to control my urges now, even with mia on my back. To me, its kind of a accomplishment because I know I'm not craving into EVERYTHING just because I can throw it back up.
I didn't eat the pizza, cake, cereal, or any other things when lunch time came around surprisingly. 
But my mom did make me cook dinner. We had Blacken Salmon with Spinach (the type of spinach in the can, not the fresh stuff you get from plastic containers.)
I only had one Salmon, with two scoops of spinach. I did one bite at a time, while drinking huge gulps of water in between.


But of course I did throw that up. I weigh as of this moment, 168.5  (I weigh myself completely naked)
I really REALLY wish I had an accurate scale, I have one of those needle-point scales, and it just honestly sucks ass. I keep trying to tell my mom; "HEY, WE NEED A NEW SCALE" but she doesn't listen. 
No, my parents don't know about my eating problems. 
I blame mostly my father for it though. AT LEAST once a day he comments about my weight, and it's just so humiliating. He even does it public too!

Here is some of my favorite thinspo;

I absolutely am IN LOVE with Ariana Grande (the red head)
She is on Victorious on Nickelodeon, and she's an amazing actress, and shes really cute, and super thin!